athena95
Nouveau poète
Behind a smile , a laugh , you can hide a lot /// You think you’re strong enough,/// to carry all that heavy pain alone,/// but one day you lose control , //// and your emotion is too big , //// you feel like your heart would explode,/// and your mind is only blown away ,//// “save me from myself” you drew on your arm,/// With this blade , that’s your favourite arm ,/// You think it’s the only way to win this battle against yourself,/// You think it’s the only way to end up all the hurt, the pain/// You fake a smile to the mirror , /// You’re lying to yourself again , /// you didn’t want to face the truth ,/// hiding it was the only way , /// you put down the blade, /// terrified by all the blood, /// you wipe the tears falling down on your face, /// you fake a smile again ../// But then you realize what you did,/// Burst into tears once more, //// You knew you’ve lost what you thought was won,/// And in your room , covered by a sheet,/// Darkness will tame your dark mind.../// Suddenly you remember , god , mom , dad, family and friends ,/// You’re hurt but you got out of the bed , /// This bed that became you grave, /// You got out of the room , /// This room that you think is heaven , well it was only hell ../// You go hug your mother , /// And try to explain to dad , /// You say ‘it was the devil who pushed me to cut’/// ‘was it attempt to suicide ?’ responded dad in tears,/// ‘no I promise you , I only wanted to feel alive , concrete hurt makes me feel alive...’/// And in the hospital that night , you tried to explain,/// ‘I’m sorry I didn’t want to hurt you with me , /// I hid this for so long , and I was afraid I’d hurt you more, /// So I decided to tell you , I only want to heal , /// I know you are with me , /// And I believe in your love, /// But devil stuffed my mind, he wanted me to fade,/// Well I was stronger this time ,but I’m afraid he’ll be one day..’///