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[tyz]

the brief feeling of dissociation
is it dissociation? or just our minds rejecting reality
are those the same things?
is it mental illness... or the lies you tell yourself to justify the pain. is that mental illness?
the dark feeling of carelessness,
all the times you told yourself you would kill yourself if it wasn't for this.... for that...
are you a coward?
are you sick for fantasizing about violence and rape
are you lost? for wanting comfort and reassurance
is it the truth or are you lying to yourself?
do you want to help yourself?
the stressful feeling of impatience. impatience for solutions and a cure
have you found a cure? or just an easy way out
is it easy or is it impossible?
but is it possible?
the everlasting feeling of dissociation
the way your mind assumes
are you giving yourself all these problems?
are your problems even real
are you valid? are you a lie
do you even exist?
what is your name and why does it sound so revolting
why does your own face make you feel sick
blood and vomit on the floor. is this your soul bleeding?
do you have a soul?
the memories that define the inexperienced
are you ignorance itself?
what is your name
the everlasting feeling of dissociation, that is me